I've found myself doing something I never do the last couple of days. I haven't played a single game. I haven't even so much as turned on my 360 or loaded Angry Birds on my phone. What's wrong with me, you might ask. I'll tell you: real fucking life.
I don't know what's wrong with me but I have some sort of satisfactory feeling from being productive and I'm not even being productive. I don't know if it's because I feel like I'm wasting time when I'm on games or what but even though I'm not studying, applying for jobs, or making money, I feel like I'm actually doing something that's beneficial to my real life instead of just mindlessly entertaining myself.
Now don't get me wrong, I love games and I'll still play but for some reason I'm enjoying this feeling right now. I have a new sense of satisfaction from knowing that I'm about to go to the gym and then grab a bite to eat out and about (probably with friends) instead of sitting here eating a pop tart while playing Call of Duty.
Is it that hard for those of us considered hardcore gamers to balance the two? Do we strive for perfection in the games we play so much that we feel we must put in all or none of our time in order to be successful? Such was the case with my World of Warcraft career, at least. In WoW, I felt like there was no point in playing if I couldn't at least play 8 hours a day. I mean, if I don't have the best gear and the best arena ratings, I feel like I'm failing myself. You'd think this would be a lot easier of a hurdle in an FPS that can be dropped at any time but it's not. When I get on Call of Duty after even a few days absence, I notice a major drop in my K/D and ability to aim. This discourages me from even wanting to get on after not playing for a day. To be honest, I'd like to play right now but I worry that I won't be able to keep up with the expectations I have for my skill in the game.
Perhaps this problem is isolated to me and a few people I've witnessed with the same gaming habits or maybe I'm not wording this correctly to get my point across. What do you think?